Always

I dont understand why I can still think of you. Even after all this years. 3 years, you don't follow me on twitter anymore and we're now levelled down to virtual friends on facebook. and it seems that the ones who got me far from you is the ones you are close with. When I think of that I always revert to this questions "what if I didnt leave?" "What if we stayed friends?" what if what if. These what ifs killed me each time. I can't seem to like anyone as wholeheartedly as I once loved you. Maybe its because i couldn't forgive and just forget the past. The part where you leave and never came back. Maybe all this while I am still waiting for you. I've always known that I need to start again. Yeah. Start again. I just hope, wherever you are, you are in a good place. I don't know when my thoughts of you will stop but until then, Insya-Allah my prayers will always be with you and your family.