I'm sorry.

These days, kawan-kawan punya presentation relates so much to us. About friendships.
About not letting negative thoughts in the way of friendships. I guess. In many ways, I'm the one who's been pulling away from the three of us. All this while I have all sorts of feeling towards you guys. Lonely, yang lama-lama bertukar jadi rasa terpinggir. To escape from that, I distance myself from you guys. I feel even less significant when I see you guys are better off without me and, takda aku pun tak pa, ada aku pun tak guna.
And I guess, from reading Kema's writing, you are mad at me for something, aren't you?
 If it's not meant for me it's fine. But I feel that it is meant to me. I don't know what it is but I am really really sorry. I just wish you would tell me though. If I had hurt you guys in any way through my actions. Had I known whats wrong I would've tried fixing it..
And ultimately,
I am sorry things turned out this way,
I am sorry for not giving an effort,
I am sorry for letting myself slip away.
I shouldn't have let emotions get in the way,
I'm sorry that I've changed.
and I as much as I don't want to lose you both,
I feel like I already did,
And I'm sorry for that, too.
I might have taken a lot of time to say this though,
maybe I had almost disappeared completely now,
but I guess now is better than never,
I just wanna say,
you guys are one of the best part of my life ever since I got here,
 and I am glad, that I am able to have you this long
I love you, Huda and Akhma, and I'm sorry, from the bottom of my heart for all the wrongs that I've done, and the right that I should have did, but didn't do.