But then again.

Relating to the previous post. Mybe at some point in my life I had abandon someone else. And that results in someone abandoning me. Or I'm not interesting enough. Maybe. Its qada' and qadar. Buat baik dibalas baik buat jahat dibalas jahat.
I always come to this sort of resolution, that if something bad happens to me maybe it's bcs I had been bad to someone else. It's not the I-blame-myself type of life. Its my way of just staying fine the way I am. My acceptance.