So many things , so little time .

I've been ignoring blogger now and more often goes to twitter or fb if I'm available online . Truth is , I'm somehow too busy to write. And now , the busyness as caught up with me and now I'm stressed , tired and everything in between . My scedule is usually like this, school in the morning , stayback in school catching up with homework, doing PSS jobs , tuition from 8.30 to 11. Today, I was late . After tuition I planned to do my homeworks at 12, I even set the alarm . But, I was too damn tired, I woke up at 6.30. 6.30 and I've not finished anything . Books are not arranged, my clothes havent ironed yet , my homework, zero progress is done. 

My head hurts , my eyes are tired and at home tears are beginning to develop in my eyes. As it was very late, the car has gone already without me . Dad was all tensed up, there's this crazy tension atmosphere , its driving me nuts . Me and my sis decided to walk instead of having dad drives us there. 

During those period time of walking , I keep hoping that somehow,I'd be involved in an accident, or anything , anything. Anything that keeps me away from coming to school today. Astaghfirullahalazim. Crazy thoughts , I know :'D What more can I do ? Bang my head to the wall ? No. I know exactly what to do, get over it ,find a way to cope with all this. 

But right now, I really felt like banging my head to the wall . Karina keeps saying I'm strong , I'm strong , but honestly, I don't think I am. I used to think I am. I'm not so sure anymore. Bersyukur sangat sangat ada dorang . LOCO. Aku tak rase aku boleh handle semua ni kalau bukan kerana dorang . They help me live.

I just hope semua ni berbaloi . Nak jadi seseorang yang boleh dibanggakan, and for once hear ''Kakak , I'm proud of you'' They dont have to say the exact words I'm hoping for them to say, as long as I can feel that they,   and everyone else, are proud of me. Just once.

All of this hardwork will ultimately pay off

-Puteri

RT from someone :

 Aku cuba nak baguskan diri aku sebab aku rase macam sampah depan Allah!